lots of random thoughts...
so, i know i haven't written in a while. over a month, to be exact. yes, steph, myspace is much easier to talk on, though i don't bare so much of my soul:)

the holidays were fun overall, though christmas didn't have the greatest start. we found out that my grandpa manske had fallen a few days before my aunt got there and laid on the floor from early evening until the next morning at 7 am because he couldn't get up. after someone heard him kicking the door, they helped him, and he now has a handy "i've fallen and i can't get up" necklace. we also found out that he now qualifies for hospice. mind you, i found all this out 1/2 hr before going over to the in-laws for christmas dinner, so i had plenty think about. my dad just got back from visiting him. he said it was hard to see his dad so frail. in some ways, i'd like to see him again, but in other ways, i want to remember him like he was last time i saw him. is this selfish? it's hard for me to even talk to him on the phone because i get so emotional.

on a lighter note about the holidays...it was fun hanging out with pooh while she was home. i miss having her around...a lot. hopefully she'll be coming home over spring break or RaNae's wedding. i also hung out with josh and RaNae a lot, as well as...gasp...my husband!! i took the week between xmas and new years off, and told conrad i was getting used to not working. sometimes i wish i didn't have to, but overall i do like my job. sometimes, it'd just be nice to be home more. today i wanted to call in sick, but didn't. why do i always get sick on the weekends??

i don't really know what else to write about. all that comes to mind is the crap that i've been thinking about lately. why does the negative seem to be more easy to think of than the positive? hopefully this will get addressed in the Bible study i'm doing over the next 10 weeks called breaking free by beth moore. hopefully next time i write i'll be more focused. time to get ready for the gym, i wanna win a trip to hawaii (gold's gym is having a fitness contest for the next 12 weeks, so far i've done well for 4 1/4 days!).