Contrary to popular belief, my prolonged absence from the blow world has not been due to my *surprise* announcement that I didn't want to let slip. No, no. I wish it was. You have no idea how I long to jump on here one day and announce that Conrad and I are going to have a baby.
My sporadic appearances have simply been a mix between not having anything *new* to say/report and being caught up in summer.
Since last spring, whenever people have asked me what our next route is for overcoming infertility, I've said (and yes, I was being completely honest) "I don't know, we are going to address it next fall when Conrad is done with harvest." This has been a safe answer. However, as beet harvest will be wrapping up in less than a month (God-willing), I am feeling the pressure to have a plan.
No one's putting pressure on me but myself. What should we do? Where should we go next? Should we schedule an appointment with a fertility specialist (3 hours away)? Do we even have the money to be addressing IVF? Do we look into accupuncture therapy? Do we look into surgeries to correct the problems and hope they actually work? Do we pursue the adoption route? Do we simply "be still..." and wait for God to do a miracle?
What I wouldn't give to see writing on the wall.
No comments:
Post a Comment