where i've been...
haven't written for awhile, partly because i don't have a lot of access to the internet (i did try to blog and post pics from the farm last week and blogger was malfunctioning...i stopped trying after 3 failed attempts). mostly though, it's because i don't like where i've been and don't want to drag you all down with me. life continues to frustrate me. i don't really understand all that's happening, or not happening for that matter. i do know that i pray A LOT, more than i can ever remember praying before. and nothing. i feel like i'm in a cloud of depression. monday night at the newberry's was the first time in two months that i've felt like myself. the last time was when i went to SLC with susan, steph, and pooh. i don't know what the deal is, but when you think about it, please pray for me:)

i do have to say that i have the BEST husband ever. he's so patient with me and i thank God every day for him. small example: monday morning (before i found out i had a flat and he had to fill up my tire) when we said goodbye he said "i can't wait until you don't have to work anymore and don't have to commute anymore." sometimes the love he shows me seems more than i deserve, more than i could've imagined in a husband. we are both eager to start a new season of life where i'm home more and where there's a little isaak involved:) hopefully it'll happen soon.