Sunday, May 13, 2012

My Baby Boy...25w3d

Not a beauty-queen worthy photo, but I wanted Conrad to take one when we got home from church today since I haven't taken any baby "bump" photos (though, as you can see, I'm past the "bump" stage). I look at other people who are around the same due date as me and I surpass them all, but I blame that on 1)not being where I wanted to be fitness-wise before pregnancy (thank you, infertility depression), and 2)eating out for five months. Bleh. Oh well. I feel great, and I'm happy as can be. My doctor has not seemed concerned about my weight, so I won't be either. I will continue to try and eat more veggies and do my 1.5-mile walk to my mailbox and call it good:)

My *first* Mother's Day!

So, I'm not exactly sure if I'm involved in this holiday yet, being my little guy is still in utero. But, I'm saying that I am:) It's the first Mother's Day in five years that I didn't wake up wanting to stay home from church (thank God that I was usually doing my second-Sunday-of-the-month nursery duty...not having to be totally in the midst of the infertile unfriendly celebration), away from people in general. I won't cry tears of frustration or longing today. I won't ask my God, "When?!" or "Have you forgotten me?!". Today, I thank my God for the life inside of me, and for the strength to make it to this moment. I am so grateful for the family and friends who stood beside me, believing for me, when I had seasons where I did not have the strength to believe anymore. Today, I am filled with gratitude for my son, who's movements make me smile, and who's healthy growth is apparent in my expanding belly. Today, I proclaim, "He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord" (Psalm 113:9). God is faithful. I saw this on FB and "shared" it as my status, because it's SO true: "Father, thank You for being an on-time God. – Although we may be impatient at times, we place our trust in You. – Please renew our strength, and let Your will be done in Your timing ... not ours. ~In Jesus' Name, Amen. For you mommies-in-waiting, I pray God's supernatural strength be yours today, and every day, until you receive your little blessing(s).