sufficient by adie camp

Hear my heart Lord as I cry out to you

Hear my prayer Lord and carry me through

In your mercy in the promise you made

Be my strength Lord when my strength fades away

Cause when I am weak your strength is complete

It's perfect

Completely all I need

Sufficient for me

Your grace and peace are perfect

Completely all I need

You're all that I need

In my weakness I'm finding your strength

In my sorrow a gentle embrace

Through the seasons of laughter or pain

You are listening

When I call out your name

I'll find you when I seek

I'll look for you with all of my heart

And I'll find you when I'm weak

Cause you are strong

Hear my heart Lord as I cry out to you

Hear my prayer Lord and carry my through

Carry me through

the rock and worship roadshow tour...
time with amazing friends, worshipping God with annointed bands with 10,000 (give or take) people, and getting out of town for a day.....absolutely what i needed.

we started at the olive garden, where service was slllllllllloooooooooowwwwwwwww, but laughter was plentiful (i almost choked on more than one occasion and i was desperately fanning myself with the dessert menu multiple times...). from there we went to world market and the christian bookstore. going into the christian bookstore i was thinking i really want a book with a christian perspective on infertility and started my search on the bargain racks. after looking over many shelves, and sure that i'd have to go looking in the full-price section (which i could not have afforded anyway, but figured i could write down names and ask for my b-day), i looked on this table and saw the title When the Cradle is Empty. i'd seen this before (as i'm a regular for the bargain tables), but never paid much attention. this time, though, i grabbed it quickly, turned it over and saw that it was only 49 CENTS!! i bought two, and now wish i would've bought more to share with others who need it. what a God-send. this will be my reading for the next few days as i'm anticipating another round of clomid.

we met up at erin's house and left soon after hearing that there were "10 million" people in line at the idaho center. because the concert was first come-first serve, i kinda though it was bound to be crazy. a few people had been there since 7am!!! luckily we knew some friends in high places and got a good spot in line. we got on the floor, probably about 25-30 rows back (not ideal for pics, but GREAT in person...could see expressions, etc.). from 7-10:45 we worshipped God. afterward, we walked around trying to see jeremy camp, but he wasn't signing b/c "he's blown his voice and can't talk till tomorrow," the t-shirt man told me. that's okay. there's something about worshipping in an arena where everyone's worshipping the same God that is just plain refreshing. refreshing is exactly what i needed and i got it last night...hope it sticks around for a while...

***mediocre pics on facebook:)

i feel like a yo-yo...
i got the call today offering me the p/t teller job at a local credit union. the interview yesterday went VERY well and i left thinking i've got this job! when the branch manager called today she was eager for me to start and decided on monday. she was very complimentary of me and said she's excited to have me at the credit union. it always feels great to know that you've presented yourself well and that others have received you well. i felt at ease throughout the interview--no nervousness, no lack of words, etc., which is a big change for me. i think i've become more personable in my maturity (my own perception only) and went into the interview without pre-conceived ideas/statements and was just myself. so this is where the "yo-yo" comes in-----as happy as i am with getting this job (a success! esp. in this economic time...), i find myself a little sad because i mostly quit my other job to have a baby...and so getting this job is just another reminder that i'm not pregnant and God only knows (literally) when i will be. it also means that money's tight in the farming industry with the economy dropping out (as if people don't need to eat!) and we've gone from having more than enough to "thanks for the free eggs, grandma", and that it's necessary that i work so we don't have to live on borrowed money (dave ramsey wouldn't approve...). conrad didn't want me to work because of money, but what's a girl to do?? i kind of feel like it's the responsible thing to do, so i'm focusing on the GREAT parts of having this new job...
****meeting new people in my little town, getting out of the house (i guess i'm supposed to say this...i rather like my house and my yard and working in both...), making money (conrad said i have to keep a chunk from every paycheck for myself...darn!), contributing to make a fully funded "emergency fund", and i'm sure there's more. oh yeah, and it's way different than my other job in that i don't have to document for medicaid what i did everyday, nor do i have to handle 15+ emotional issues/mental illnesses. this job will seem like a piece of cake....and i LOVE cake!!

a breath of fresh air...
i was blessed to go on a walk outside with my friend jenny today. we walked along the banks of the resevoir and it was so peaceful and beautiful. i love my little town and am glad i am finding some other housewives to pass some time with. i'll be having 2 friends over for lunch on thursday and am looking forward to it. relationships have a way of bringing *life* into our otherwise meaningless lives. thank God for good relationships!!

after our walk we went to the local thrift store, because i had seen the "50% off clothing" sign on my way over to pick up jenny. we started at the baby clothes rack. she's expecting in nov. or dec. and i find it hard to resist a quality/cute/cheap onesie (how do you spell that anyway??). i found 3 baby items--one unisex piece and 2 female-oriented pieces:) i can't help myself! i feel like we'll have a girl first...but only God knows! maybe with my fertility help we'll have a boy and a girl (don't tell conrad i said that...). it's been a good week so far and will only get better with painting our master bedroom, girls' (plus the two little guys...) lunch on thursday, concerts and girls' night on friday, and hopefully no period...